Just Some Things

There's been many things happened this past years and let me tell you. First, I meet my first love -well it's not actually a meeting- I just got connected to him again. Somehow he send me a text, it's unexpected of course but I'm really really happy. We still contact each other, and no he's helping me out about my sister. Call me crazy for saying that it's a fate, but I really think it is. I mean, he suddenly appeared in my life and somehow my sister is going to the same intuition with him. It's amazing right? But there's something that I'm actually worried about. I want to meet him, really want but I don't know, it makes me nervous just to think about it. Just what if he doesn't like me, what if he disappointed. I'm lacking in everything, the most unwanted woman to be girlfriend in the world. Ah, I want to throw up. And now, here I am, busy preparing my self for that moment that maybe will never happened. Second, guess who get 3.54 credit? Yeah, that's me. I don't really know why I got that point because I don't think I did good in my last exam, but yeah we never know what will happened. Thanks Allah for all the blessings that You give me. Another bless I'm asking You is, please let me pass the scholarship audition, I really need that. Amen The last, ah I hate to talk about it because I never want to be this thing, not even in my dream. You know what, I'm the LEADER now. I hate that from the bottom of my heart, it's really not suited me. I don't like to take all the responsibility, I don't like to be pressured, I don't like to be the center, I just hate that leading thing so much. I hope it will end soon, really soon.

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